This seems to be the season of misdirected emotion. Lately, I’ve been noticing it all around me. I see my friend turning bitter towards people she doesn’t even know– spouting off to a faceless entity to fill an empty void. I see another friend being the target of anger that has nothing to do with her. I see my daughter channeling frustration and confusion where it doesn’t belong.
FRYING PAN, please! This is one of those AH HA moments for me– where, essentially, I guess I needed someone to hit me over the head with a frying pan to make me take notice.
So what does this kind of repetition do? It causes me to look within and ask– why am I surrounded by this? Or the better question is why do I suddenly have a heightened sense of awareness of it?
The answer, I’ve found time and time again, is that it’s calling attention to a lesson I need to learn about myself. Somewhere in my life I’ve been misdirecting an emotion, or several. I recognize it. I do.
We’ve all heard it said that what we recognize in others which we don’t like or are intolerant of, instead, is a flaw within ourselves that we’re seeing: like a mirror, only we don’t recognize it until we see it outside of ourselves. Avoidance/misdirection is a defense mechanism. And, all too often, we go on judging instead of looking within and altering the flaw; after all, change is hard, and self-knowledge even harder. But, when we become brave enough to really look in the mirror, it can be freeing–like a call to Jesus.
I seem to be getting a lot of those, lately.